Disrupted sleep, homicidal penguins, and irrational fears.

[hwango]

I can't sleep. Well, I couldn't sleep. Maybe I could now, but I don't want to perpetuate this crazy situation that I'm in right now. You see, when I was sick for a few days, I spent a lot of extra time sleeping. Then, when I was done getting extra sleep, I was stuck on a new schedule of when I was awake, and have spent the last couple of days going to sleep at about 11 AM. Yes. AM. I'm perilously close to sleeping the vampire schedule.

I spent this morning thinking up crazy new boardgame stuff. I still want to get my other one tested, polished, and completed, but I've got new ideas as well. Ideas with strangely armed penguins taking over crazy restaurants, like Pizza Dominion. I need normal sleep.

I plan to stay in tonight, since it will be a bit less stressful than if I don't. You see, I have an irrational fear of going out on Christmas Eve. This is why I wasn't heartbroken to skip the usual candlelight service at church last year (my only church experience in the whole year, barring a wedding or something). This fear goes all the way back to when a neighbor's house was completely gutted by fire while the whole family was at church for Christmas Eve. Bad enough to lose your home, but it just seems extra horrible to lose it on Christmas Eve, and a cruel joke to have been at church when it happened. Anyway, ever since this I've felt very anxious coming home on Christmas Eve, fearing that the house wouldn't be there waiting for us. It's silly and irrational, but it's something I've never quite overcome.

Comments

[thevelvetdays.livejournal.com]

The warm, muggy/cloudy weather this week can't be helping your schedule. It feels categorically unChristmassy at the moment.

I think I remember hearing about someone's house being burned down around the holidays a few years ago, but I don't know if it's the same person you are talking about.

Have a Merry Christmas, and I hope you feel better.

[hwango.livejournal.com]

Ironically, the choice not to go this year was sort of taken out of my hands - after being awake for over 24 hours, I was pretty much a zombie by the time dinner was over and I just went straight to bed.

The weather has been a little weird. I thought the rain was going to wash away what snow we had, but there's still a little left where it was deepest from shoveling. At least it's not a completely snow-free Christmas.

Merry Christmas to you, too.

Criminals who take advantage of holidays...

[krzzl.livejournal.com]

I can't rememeber if I told you or not, but we got robbed on Good Friday when I was in high school while we were at church. One more reason I'm glad I'm not Catholic anymore...